Let me hear you call my name.
 Well, we meet again. I'm Alexa, but you already know that. However, you might call me Lexi, which is cool. Like me, cool that is. I make my own friendship bracelets like it's my job. But it's not. I work at a seasonal restaurant. I have an iPhone and we all know that makes me superior or something. Oh yeah, I'm like 21 or something like that. I love photography and have a Nikon D60... which I don't use. What more could you want from me? Just read. More than words.
You know you love me, too.
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Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Im so tired right now its ridiculous but Im also wired. Plus I dont think I could sleep even if I wanted to. The movie The Happening was pretty intense. Like, I hid through parts of it. And its not that Im a scardy cat, its cos I cant stand to watch other people kill themselves. God it just creeps me out.The movie is driving me crazy though. Throughout the entire thing I tried to find the symbolism and stuff like that. I mean, everything came together in the end but i dont know what everything means. Therefore I am going crazy. Its a full moon out tonight and its lovely. I just wish I could be dreaming of it and not writing about it. I always pictured seeing a dragon in the moon. Like i dont know why but the craters just look like a dragon to me. I used to be afraid of it, and when I was younger, my cousin Michael used to tell me scary stories about the moon and what happened to it when it was full. I dont remember them now, the stories I mean, but I just remembered that they always creeped me out. I dont mind it now, however. My aunt, uncle, cousin and grandfather have stopped by and are staying for a couple of days. Or well at least most of them besides my cousin. I dont know I dont really like my cousin too much. She is kind of weird. Not nessicarily in a bad way, just too weird for my tastes, or too different. I do like her sister though. Now tomorrow I am playing in the Inn and the Out softball game. Im sort of, like... tentative about playing because I havent played in years. But I still love the game so much and I know I dont suck. I just dont want to, like, make a total ass out of myself. I was always better than average, but really... i might have lost it. Not that it really matters, from what Mikey tells me I should have no problems looking better than half of them. So Im okay with that. I feel bad though. I feel as though I put pressure on Mikey to do things that he wouldnt nessicarily do, or like. Like I want to ride my bike in from my house to Saltaire tomorrow, but thats a long bike ride. I feel as though that my insecurities about things really bother him. And Im trying to improve on those things. Ive built myself up more so than I probably would have just to try and avoid being annoying. And its good because it isnt bad things Ive changed about myself. Only things that have helped me to grow. So whatever, it's whatever. I do feel bad though. Like... I dont know. But I really dont want to show up alone. I would feel like a retard. There isnt much logic behind it, other then I just would feel that way, but yeahhhhhhhhhh. But now Im worried that my uncle might actually accidentally snoop on my life story that I had begun to write in a binder... I should really get that away from him. So Im gonna go. I have some sleep to catch up on or something like that. Mikey is amazing, fyi. |
Goodbye.
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