Let me hear you call my name.
 Well, we meet again. I'm Alexa, but you already know that. However, you might call me Lexi, which is cool. Like me, cool that is. I make my own friendship bracelets like it's my job. But it's not. I work at a seasonal restaurant. I have an iPhone and we all know that makes me superior or something. Oh yeah, I'm like 21 or something like that. I love photography and have a Nikon D60... which I don't use. What more could you want from me? Just read. More than words.
You know you love me, too.
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Paradise City
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
I've become disconnected with a lot of older friends, and that makes me feel somewhat guilty, as though i am neglecting them. I mean, I've been chilling with my fire island friends more-so then the others. I mean, i'm not really including the ASJ group cos i see them in school, but everyone else i am losing something with them. Part of me misses them, and then part of me is angry, too. They could take some of their time and call me too, the phone works both ways. I always have to wind up being the bigger person and call first, but has anyone ever noticed? I'm NOT the bigger person, i'm actually quite the coward... whatever.But i'm happy. Really happy. I know where I am finally going in life and that fills me with so much joy. That area of my life has been so grey for so long, it's a relief to realize where I want to go. I mean, that has always been half of the reasons i've been so depressed. It's just about time. I love it when things fall right into place, and yeah sure i have a lot of ground to cover before i make it to college and into my business major, but now i get to aim for something. I can start saving for a car, for a house/apartment, for a place to rent space! It just gives me such relief that I can finally come up with a plan for my future. Yeah, I won't be able to plan out everything, but that is what money is for, that's what it can help with. and no I am not the most richest person out there, but I work for my money. Hell, I'm going to buy a new camera today cos I have made 1,000 in the past five weeks or so. That doesnt seem amazing, but it's enough to keep me happy. I've also found this desire to own a house on fire island. I don't want to leave it entirely. I just love it so much. It's so easy going and no worries. Everything that I want to be about. It brings a smile to my face, even knowing that i might never have enough money for a house there, but i just get filled with a warm feeling. Everything won't always be alright, but for now I am going to appreciate this feeling, live like today is my last day and make up for lost time. It also helps that my freedom is so close I can taste it. I'm going to start taking drivers ed for my liscence. =] |
Goodbye.
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